Called HIM at 7.30pm to see if we are still meeting today. We planned to go to Little India. He had to buy his socks...However, he was feeling tired and said he would call me back 15 minutes later. Just when I put down the call, Rebecca asked me where shallwe go for dinner. I was contemplating whether to go dinner with her or not. In the end, I thought it was alright to have dinner with her first before meeting him. First, he allowed me to do so, according to him this morning. Second, it would be quite some time before he will reach. That time, we agreed to meet at City Hall MRT staion.Went to Coffee Club for dinner and ordered exactly the same dish that I ordered previously. But this time round, I took the salad instead of the soup.The time he left home is the time I was heading to the MRT station. He sald that he thought of eating dinner with me. But I destroyed his plan. I went for dinner without him, knowing that he will be meeting me earlier today which means that we will have dinner together. What a stupid fool I was.I denied having dinner then... Went to Shop In, found out that the socks sold there was rather expensive. We then changed our meeting venue to Little India again. Was spotted there by Auntie Daisy. Called me on my handphone but I denied being there all the way...Took a raxi to Amara Hotel after dinner.It may sound fortunate to be able to meet your loved one 3 days in a row. But, it was not smooth sailing at all. We had lots of disagreements along the way the whole of tonight. It made me fear that today would really be the last day for us to meet.Time to cut down on my food intake!!! Tummy's getting bigger as time goes by...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
3:22 PM
It was only yesterday that all was well. That both of US were happy. That we enjoyed each other's company and really treasure the time spent together.Today was the total opposite of what happened yesterday...He called me when I just placed my order. Was at this Japanese restaurant in Marina Square with the other Reservations staffs for dinner. Forgot to take down the name of the restaurant... That really pleased me... He asked me to get dinner for him. Knowing that he does not like to wait for others, I told him I would not have the time to do so. But he insist.So when my food (Spicy Chicken Ramen and Octopus balls) came, I ate in a hurry. It was as good as just pouring the whole bowl of noodles down my throat. But the food was nice! And the meal only cost $12!!! Not sure if taxes is included though...Planned to go withdraw money, buy him fried rice and a few pairs of socks, go back to the restaurant to give them the money for my food before heading to City Hall MRT station to meet him. But, when I was just about to go and collect the food after withdrawing money, he called. I had no choice but to inform Rebecca to help me settle the bill first. Will pay her back tomorrow.After collecting the fried rice, rush to Giant supermarket to find his socks. But those sold there were rather expensive. Dropped the idea of buying and rush to the MRT station.On my way there, he called to say that he reached already. I quickened my speed of walking. Just a minute more to reach the MRT station, he called again, saying that he could not wait anymore and is heading for work already. This made me pissed. He just do not understand my intention. Always threatening me. I thought, just seeing him for that few minutes would definitely make my day better. But he had to ruin it.Spotted him at the control station. Tried to contain my temper and put on a smile infront of him. But the smile was not for long.After he left, the anger in me rises again. I was just not pleased about what he did to me. Did he know how I ate my food? Did he know how I rushed about for him? NO... I messaged him, saying that I was actually angry with him. He called, saying he is also angry because the fried rice has pork!!! But, I do not recall having pork in the fried rice though... Anyway, I cried again on my way home. Because of this matter. To make matters worse, I was reminded of how Daddy is suffering and how selfish and useless I am.He called me again. I could not control my tears. I cried while talking to him. Though I know he HATES this...He just called again. And I tried to explain to him that that is the way for me to release my frustration. Just like how he throw his temper at me whenever he has problems. Hopes he understands now. And I know this is not an excuse for me to keep crying to him...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
3:55 PM
Was contemplating whether to meet HIM or Rebecca yesterday. In the end, I managed to meet up with both of them. =)Got out of bed at 1pm, bathed and went to meet Rebecca at Parkway Parade. Our purpose of going out then was to buy a pair of black clog choes for work. Before that, went to have lunch at Pasta Mania. Her friend was working there and we thought we would have a free lunch. But, when we arrived, he was still not at work... =(I had the Spicy Chicken pasta AGAIN... Only chose that dish whenever I dine at Pasta Mania. She had Prawns and Shrooms. Like rather delicious. Shall eat that the next time I go there... Both of us ordered the set which comes with a cup of drink, a bowl of soup and 3 pieces of garlic bread. So satisfied. =)After that, begin hunting for our shoes. We did manage to buy it. I also got some hair accessories.Then, she head home while I went to Plaza Singapura to meet HIM. We planned to watch Tha Maid. Yes, you got it right. Being the timid me, after hearing the story from Renny, after reading about it in Rachel's blog, I still went ahead to watch it.While waiting for him, I walked over to Little India to buy the gultinious rice for him. But, yesterday's one did not taste as nice as the previous ones which we have been eating...Not sure is it because I knew the storyline already or what, but I was really afraid when I watched the show. Kept covering my ears. He put his arms round me and that felt so comforting and loved...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
10:45 PM
It was not a bad choice afterall to attend the gathering GM arranged. It was specially only for those who have been carrying on working during the hotel's closure. A way to thank us, a way for us to unwind, relax and enjoy ourselves, I guess. And of course, another way for us to interact with one another.There was much fun and laughter. Some games were played. And, one of them have to be associated with balloons!!! Imagine the fear I had in me through-out the evening. The fear of balloon bursting...It was Edeline's birthday as well. Happy birthday to you, Edeline!!!After that, went to meet Elaine at Pasir Ris Park. Understand that she is going through a rough time. After spending time talking to her, listening to her, she made me realise something.I was selfish. Very selfish as well. I only thought about my own feelings. What about HIS???I really hope that after today, I will change for the better. Learn to empathize with him, and never take things for granted!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
5:36 PM